So about a year ago I wrote a blog about how frustrating being fat has been, how it bothers me, how I'm going to focus on it for the next year.
Then my back went out. Which was the typical cycle.
Then I had my girls reduced and my back was okay.
Then I joined Weight Watchers.
So what's the status?
Well, the good news is, since I wrote that blog I'm down 23 pounds-- not 70 like I had hoped, but more than 10%. Not bad. Still fat, though.
I'm exercising semi-regular. Not as often as I'd like, but better than nothing. I was able to get back to tap dancing, which I do for fun, not fitness. I make it to my Zumba class now about 90% of the time and I usually get in a spin class at least once a week. We've also been walking a lot more.
Food wise, I realized that WWs was not really going to work for me. I couldn't figure out why I wasn't losing much on it. When I say I eat fairly healthy, I actually mean it. The free fruit and vegetable thing didn't really work. When I started writing down the calories and not the points, I learned I was eating 2100 calories a day-- that's not going to get me to my goals any time soon. I will still drop into WW, but honestly, listening to people talk about how fast their weight is falling off since they quite eating candy bars, soda, etc, was really making me nuts. On the positive side having my friends Ellen and Lisa go was great. They are both really doing well. It also got me back in the habit of tracking what I was eating and being more conscientious-- all good things. I also like the accountability of the weigh-in's. I got some great tips-- for example when I want to eat something that's not good for me, I hear the leader Matt's voice saying "Do you love it? If you love it, eat it. If not, don't waste your points on it." I would just rather pay $12 a month than $50!
So what's the plan going forward?
For now, I decided to take a break from tracking. It was getting old. With that, I'm forcing myself to pre-plan my food a little more. I just want to hold steady until June- let my body adjust a bit. Stick with what I'm doing. The good news, I have a much better feeling of what "full" is. I'm trying to readjust to eating when I'm hungry. For now. We'll see how it goes. If the scale starts creeping up, I'll start tracking again. I read "If I'm So Smart, Why Can't I Lose Weight?" and the author focuses on retraining yourself to eat correctly, rather than focus on a "diet." We'll see.
In June, I'm signing up for CrossFit for the summer (for 2 months). I can go early in the morning, which has always been my best time to work out. I like the structure and the varied workouts. I like the free form aspect of it. I'll still do my other stuff-- this will hopefully get things going again. Then we'll see how Shane's schedule works in the fall- if he has an early bird class to teach, I'll need to come up with something else- and that includes a 4 am wake up to go to the gym. Oh well. If that's what it takes, that what it takes.
In summary, what I've learned over the last year is that I already eat fairly healthy most of the time, I late night snack, and the only time the scale moves down for me is when I exercise 4-5 times a week- watching what I eat isn't going to have much impact at all.
I'll just keep doing what I'm doing. I'll make changes as I need. And hopefully by this time next year, I'll be down another 23 pounds- or maybe more. If it takes 3 years, to get it all off, then it will take 3 years.
I'm not giving up- and that's what's important to me. I'm not dieting. I'm developing a healthy lifestyle that for the next few years is going to focus on getting in shape. Then, it will focus on staying in shape. I'm looking forward to a healthy & fit next 60 years!